A Kiss

Tainted by a kiss,
From your lying lips.
You set my dreams, my hopes, my world on fire.
Let it be know that you are the greatest liar.

A Heavy Burden to Carry, Don't Discard with Caution

Where were you in my time of want and need?
Too occupied by your own rapaciousness and greed!
I guess I was nothing but a burden,
But now I'm off your hands and there's no more hurting.
At least not for you, because I never meant anything,
To you I have always been nonexistent, just nothing.
Now all tehre is to bring back the bitter memories are faded photos.
But no one needs to be reminded that you're a piece of shit, everyone already knows.

Swallowed the Keys to My Heart

You have my heart locked away in your cold, iron box,
I want it back but you swallowed the keys to all the locks.
What am I to do? I feel more numb and nonexisitant with the passing of each day,
What do you want with my heart? You don't care for it, but I guess you must have your way.
But I suppose I should thank you for not fucking me then throwing me out,
Keep me in the dark, because that's what its all about.
Instead of having the answers I am left with more questions,
And through your nonresponsive attitude, I have my apprehensions.
No matter what it is I feel for you it is strong,
So don't sugarcoat anything and tell me what you've felt all along.
I want my heart back and I want to feel the harsh reality,
It is no stranger to me.

Damn

Nothing but a thorn in my spine,
All I hear is you complain and whine.
You're an itch that really needs to be scratched,
Your stupidity just can't be matched.
Yet somehow I am to blame,
I know you set up this game.
But I also know that I am the champion,
You're nothing but a mere piss-on.
So next time don't count your chickens before they hatch,
And don't forget to watch your back.
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No one will remember you when you're gone,
No one gave a shit all along.
Just remember this shit is all on you,
So don't blame me for anything you say and do.

All Eyes On You

I grit my teeth and make a fist,
I am disgusted by your rapaciousness.
You are the queen of disease,
Inflated ego and scabbed knees.
Completely hedonistic,
Don't forget obsessive and sadistic.
You don't care what you have to do,
As long as all eyes are on you.
You'll do anything for attention,
Now everyone is gazing in your direction.
We're all trapped and trying to get away,
You won't leave until you've had you way.
But we are no longer deceived.
We can see through your lies, hate and greed.

Scary Movie

Fairy tales were never meant for me,
I'm stuck in this scary movie and I will always be.
I'm waiting for my prince charming so I can be saved,
But I know he'll never come and it's time for the monsters to invade.
I can hear the shots of a gun,
How many pierced my skin? None.
I can see the gleam of a knife,
They won't stop until they've taken my life.
I can hear the roar of a chainsaw,
They want to see me dead, but I refuse to fall.
Even after everyone thinks I've had enough,
I will never give up.
Doing my best in life I will never cease,
This scary movie will have more sequels than Friday the 13th.

 An Insincere Apology to Those Who Never Cared
I looked into your smiling eyes and felt loyalty,
I suppose it wasnt on your part.
I heard your all your secret words,
They were like daggers through the heart.
Never realized that someone could look me right in the face and lie,
Then I turn around and hear what hasnt been directly said.
It slaps me in the face,
Leaves my cheek stinging and red.
So I am left grasping for an answer,
It is a hard one to find.
Maybe one day Ill understand it,
All in due time.

I'm so sorry that I was there for you,
I'm so sorry that everything I said was true.
I'm terribly sorry I wasnt up to your standards,
I'm terribly sorry I took into credibility your words.
I'm awfully sorry I was always there to help,
I'm awfully sorry I can stand up for myself.
I'm dreadfully sorry I tried to be your friend,
I'm dreadfully sorry that this is my entire fault this has come to an end.
Most of all I am truly sorry for being me,
Hope you accept this, because this is my insincere apology.

 WISH

How could I be stupid enough to let my guard down again?
I put it down and let you in.
Now all there is left is damage and debris,
How could I have ever thought you cared about me?
As quickly as you made me laugh, you made me cry.
Now I'm trying to choke back tears and wishing I could die.
Wishing I was born without a heart and the ability to feel.
Wish this was all a dream and none of it real.
Wishing for no more heart break and lies.
I am wishing for my demise.

 
I Am Hated

I am hated,
Sitting here frustrated.
I am alone,
The reasons for all these feelings are unknown.
I am cold,
To me the truth was never told.
AND I AM DEAD,
Murdered through the hate and bitterness I have been fed.

 
Drowning In Your Carelessness

I thought I was getting closer, but my mistake, I was farther,
You reached out to grab my hand, but my mistake, you just pushed me harder.
Holding me underwater, your hands are fixed tightly around my throat,
I struggle to survive, but you swim away and leave my body dead and afloat.
How could you leave me drifting alone in the high tide,
I thought you said youd be there, but obviously you lied.
Lungs full of water, heart full of hate and bitterness,
I never expected it from you, how could you do this?

 
 Your Face on the Pavement

Wanting to smash your face on the pavement,
I never would have guessed this is the way things could've went.
How could you fill me with such false hope,
In the end it was just a simple "nope".
You made me doubt myself,
When my mind was on you, yours was somewhere else.
I would never ask what I could've done,
I did all I could, and you could do was run.
When I looked into your eyes I thought I saw something,
But I lied to myself, it was really nothing.
Nothing because you are empty inside.
So do what you're best at- run and hide.
I hate the remembrance of your touch,
Why did I think you were something special when you were nothing much,
I hate the memory of your kiss,
It fills me up with such bitterness.
So bitter I cannot even cry. 
My memories of you live on, but I hope they will soon die.
I see your face smashed on the pavement,
I do not feel happy or sad, but indifferent.
Your blood pours out such a deep shade of red,
I feel nothing, my feelings for you are dead.

Alone and Left for Dead

If it were possible to die from loneliness, I'd be dead,
The only one I have left is the voice in my head.
You say you care, but you say it in vain,
All I feel from your trivial responses is your disdain.
You don't have to act anymore,
Responding to me seems to be a chore.
I know when I am unwanted,
I know now, and I am haunted.
Haunted by the emptiness in my heart and the raging thoughts in my mind,
Alone in my room I am confined.
Realizing I have no one to depend upon,
Even who I thought was here for me is gone.
Tears pouring from my eyes and my knees to my chin,
My metamorphosis into a misanthrope will begin.

"Detached"

I hold my hand out and try to grasp,
But you are so far- unresponsive and detached.
Your unconcern stings like a thousand cuts and scrapes,
Each one of my vulnerable feelings your coolness rapes.
You sit emotionless and apathetic,
Sometimes I want to tell you I love you, but I know I'll regret it.
I know my feelings for you are not returned,
Your back to me you turned.
I choke back my tears and try not to cry,
I want to give up on you, but I still try.
Just slice my heart up and serve it on a plate,
I wont need it at this rate.
All you gave me is a whole in my heart that cant be patched.
And now from you I need to be detached.

Things Fall Apart

Things are falling apart,
I finally thought things would work, but I was wrong from the start.
The pieces are strewn across the floor,
Shattered to so many pieces they are repairable no more.
The pieces are sharp and cut into my skin,
I release cries of pain from within.
My blood flows out, warm and red,
So many thoughts racing through my head.
No one told me things would be like this,
If only I had one wish.
I'd wish I wasn't kneeling in shards of broken glass,
That all this pain would just pass.
But I'm still kneeling here, bleeding,
Tears down my cheeks are speeding.
Not only do things fall apart,
So do I- kneeling in glass and blood, trying to mend a broken heart.

 
Untitled

I sat longing and waiting on those stairs,
Recalling everyone forgets and no one cares.
Not wanted for who I am,
How would you know, you never gave a damn.
As the sun went down, I knew you wouldn't arrive,
I've been waiting since noon and its now past five.
Now all these years have passed,
My hatred for you has been cast.
I'm sure I'll never see you again,
I know you don't care now, because you didn't care then.
No matter how hard I try, I can't forget.
I can't lie and pretend we never met.

Naive

I know I am naive,
I hear and I believe.
Now I feel used,
My judgement bruised.
In the back of my head I thought, "trust no one",
I trusted you and now the damage is done.
Are they just fallacies or bold-faced lies?
Each time I look at you, my trust in you dies.
Now your words are trivial to me,
Who am I to believe?

 

Hardcore Whore

Thick black rings encircle her lying eyes,
Her tricky lips disguised by cherry red.
In her short shirts and tight pants, she's a prize,
Outside small and cute, inside drab and dead.
She's always at all the underground shows,
To see the latest up-incoming bands.
Making sure she looks cool in her "punk" clothes,
She's so unique that no one understands.
Smiling to our faces, frowning to our backs,
Thinks she's admired, but only despised.
She thinks we're all her friends, but friends she lacks,
Recalling when she deceived and lied. 
So hip to the scene, so very hardcore,
She's everyone's favorite little whore!

 
Darkness

No matter how loud I scream,
I will never live my dream.
Wanting to be appreciated,
But my feelings will never be communicated.
I want to live in a perfect world, but they threw me away,
Alone in solitude I must stay,
I dream of good, warm things,
But I only receive what darkness brings.

 
More Self-Pity

I'm sick of being alone,
I'm sick of my feelings being unknown.
Unwanted for who I am,
I realized that when I learned no one gave a damn.
No matter how much I cry, my tears don't help,
I can only help myself.
But what can I do if I can't do anything right?
I'm tired of having to work harder and fight.
I should surrender, but I won't
I can't leave on a sour note.


Your Doll

 I am just your doll,
I sit pretty on your shelf, on your wall.
When not needed I am thrown on your floor,
Eventually kicked under your bed when needed no more.
I am forgotten,
Until you need me and let me in,
I am held tightly, like your prize,
I feel hope when I look into your eyes.
Hoping you won't forget again,
Thinking you would always be here, my dear friend.
I hate when you leave me alone, forgotten under your bed,
Not telling me what you're thinking, in your head.
Always here at your descretion,
You are always right, I am no one to question.
When I constantly misplaced,
I feel hopeless and scathed.
When all of your new friends come to play, there is no use for me,
I am stuck here, as I will always be,
I wish you would be there to catch me when fall,
But I'm not worth it , I am just your doll.
 

My Demise

Sitting here in confusion,
Brought on my my delusion.
Things were getting better everyday,
Finally my way.
But then I noticed you, the terrible spider,
I froze in fear as my eyes grew wider.
I was trapped in your web of lies,
Here comes my demise.

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